stay sober, lms

i don't know when it appears; i don't know how it emerges; i don't know when it clicks; and i don't know how it lives.

i don't know i don't know i don't know because i'm not the Almighty God. i'm aware of serving the faith wholeheartedly throughout my life and it is merely insignificant upon the time i'm called to account for my deeds.

however (for everything there's forever a 'however'), i really can't ignore it when it comes inevitably; i seriously can't diminish it when it grows fundamentally; and i certainly can't stop it when the initiator appears vividly.

i pray to god to let me stay sober, and geez, the bottom of my heart is betraying me.