How to ......?

It was a busy morning of Tuesday, about 9.30A.M., when I was cracking head inspiring ideas for ‘Types of Lies’. I felt so stressed and not so willing to spend my beautiful morning on essay writing. But I had to as the assignment due on Wednesday noon. I wasn’t fully focused on what I supposed to. So many psychological problems were troubling me, my body was in Kuching but my mind was somewhere else. My special concern towards him was distracting my mind from continuing the third paragraph. Therefore I decided to stop writing and turned towards my HP Compact Presario V3759TU, moving the cursor to the toolbar and clicking on the icon, I decided to check my overloaded mailbox.

'How to ......' listed the top.
“Huh?”
“Did I see wrongly?”
“Was this from him? A long waited mail since the day he asked for my email?”

I rubbed and blinked my eyes to clarify what I saw on the 14” screen. Without hesitation I clicked on the title and the page jumped into the content less than one second (the network is superb in the morning). I started reading it curiously, and was wondering what the passage was about. Anyway, I was stuck somewhere as the lexicon really drove me crazy. I even had to move the cursor to the vocabularies to see the translations done by Google WordTranslator in order to master the content.

“True love ...........”

I was melting.

“Were you intimating ‘something’, or ‘anything’ through the not-explicit-words?”
“Was I the only recipient of the mail?”
“Why were you sending this?!”

I’d so many inquiries in my mind which I want to unveil them but, on the other hand, wish to retain the beauty of ambiguity. I was so confused. All I could was at least, to move the cursor to ‘show details’, and after clicking I found out that I wasn’t the only recipient but I was the first! My heart beat increased enormously and my mind to drift further; from Earth to Pluto, imagining the anticipating words he would one day confess to me.

The fantasy aggravated. While I wish I could continue surviving in the unreal fairy tale, the obligation of completing college task created guilt on me. No choice, I grabbed my Pentel mechanical pencil and continued writing, but with all the implicit doubts remain unconcealed.

In What Ways Has Going To United States Affected Me?

Today, when people discuss about America, I will take heed; when the members of the “family group” buzz, I will answer immediately; when someone speaks English, I will discern his or her grammatical error. Conspicuously, this is how going to United States has affected me from psychological to emotional and to erudition. How tremendous the affections are on a debut 18-year-old adult who wishes carefree more than nerve-racking.

Previously, I favor United Kingdom’s culture more than United State’s. Due to prejudice and nescience, I eschewed all “USA-linked” matters, apparently in learning English Language where I disparaged the substitution of “s” with “z” and the “ou” with “o”. I even ridiculed people who enunciate English words in Americans’ way of pronunciation, and naively tried to change my America-preferred-friends to anti-America. Ironically, these prior deprecatory perceptions were completely altered after evidencing USA is the place where I’m going to bring back with at least, a Bachelor Degree. Consequently, I now pay extra attention to “America” where anything or everything consists of the word “USA” will catch me attention, and I’m real ashamed of my ill-mannered and hesitation in exploring the world’s strongest country – USA. Now, all the curiosity and wonders over the place I’m going drive me aggressive in discovering USA. Whenever I’m free, I’ll watch Hollywood movies; whenever I’m cautious, I’ll update myself with the progress of United States Presidential Election 2008 between Barrack Obama and John McClain; whenever I’m generous, I’ll hunt for America-made products. Just like all the other non-Americans, I’ve huge wonder over the culture and lifestyle of United States, and I desire to unveil how common or normal the wondrous of legalized prostitution, licensed gun authority and mannered kissing and hugging in the point of Americans are.

Apart from marveling at the United States, day by day I found my rational soul lacking of love. My intuition tells me my spirit is hunger over sincere caring and understanding which come only from family. I deeply experience the need of buttress and love from them. When I undergo dolefulness, they are the first and only one to bear with my problems and not getting neither frustration nor ennui; when I enjoy hilarity, they are the first and only one to cheer and clap wholeheartedly for me; when I suffer boredom, they are the first and only one to come out with immediate and chill jokes to eradicate my dissatisfaction. On the other hand, the “services” they provide are also priceless and prestige. Who will be one’s “free-of-charge driver” to send him or her back and forth whenever he or she requests? My cousins will; who will be one’s “free-of-charge tourist guide” to bring him or her outing around and tasting different types of food every weekend? My cousins will; who will be providing 24-hours auxiliary domicile for one to feel secured and protected all times? My cousins will. I am veridical grateful of the sacrifices made to ease my autonomous life before departing for US. Hence, it’s undisputable that the close relationship between my family and I is like the flowing water; no matter how powerful the splashing is, it will never halt the flowing. Truthfully, I treasure the chances of intimidating with them more than anything does.

Being cognizant of the importance of education and its great influences in distinguishing humans, the chance of going to US engenders me to enhance myself with better English foundation. Working gravely after this chance simply because I acknowledge that through education, the ignorant become learned; the cowardly become valiant; and the savage nations become civilized. So, in the same way, I am concerned over the importance of correct grammar used and sophisticated essay written rather than colloquial conversation spoken alone. These are evident in the English course I attend, in the journal writing I practice, and in the regular presentation and speaking I make. As a whole, I affirm that English is today’s most important language due to its popularity worldwide and its “International Language” title. I’m convinced that this possible auxiliary language to unify mankind as appointed by God, which is widely used in political affairs, business across the country, and education abroad, will lead to betterment of humanity.

Going to United States is grace as well as gift especially when it’s being sponsored. Due to all the affections of going to United States I get to understand my will, my sight, and my ability better, and I believe this is a significant turning point of my life as well as a great transition from ignorance to awareness. Knowing these affections are fated, not vexatious, and inevitable, I presume there are wisdoms behind, and one day, I will be thankful to what I have ordained today.

In What Ways Has Going To United States Affected Me?

Today, when people discuss about America, I will take heed; when the members of the “family group” buzz, I will answer immediately; when someone speaks English, I will discern his or her grammatical error. Conspicuously, this is how going to United States has affected me from psychological to emotional and to erudition. How tremendous the affections are on a debut 18-year-old adult who wishes carefree more than nerve-racking.

Previously, I favor United Kingdom’s culture more than United State’s. Due to prejudice and nescience, I eschewed all “USA-linked” matters, apparently in learning English Language where I disparaged the substitution of “s” with “z” and the “ou” with “o”. I even ridiculed people who enunciate English words in Americans’ way of pronunciation, and naively tried to change my America-preferred-friends to anti-America. Ironically, these prior deprecatory perceptions were completely altered after evidencing USA is the place where I’m going to bring back with at least, a Bachelor Degree. Consequently, I now pay extra attention to “America” where anything or everything consists of the word “USA” will catch me attention, and I’m real ashamed of my ill-mannered and hesitation in exploring the world’s strongest country – USA. Now, all the curiosity and wonders over the place I’m going drive me aggressive in discovering USA. Whenever I’m free, I’ll watch Hollywood movies; whenever I’m cautious, I’ll update myself with the progress of United States Presidential Election 2008 between Barrack Obama and John McClain; whenever I’m generous, I’ll hunt for America-made products. Just like all the other non-Americans, I’ve huge wonder over the culture and lifestyle of United States, and I desire to unveil how common or normal the wondrous of legalized prostitution, licensed gun authority and mannered kissing and hugging in the point of Americans are.

Apart from marveling at the United States, day by day I found my rational soul lacking of love. My intuition tells me my spirit is hunger over sincere caring and understanding which come only from family. I deeply experience the need of buttress and love from them. When I undergo dolefulness, they are the first and only one to bear with my problems and not getting neither frustration nor ennui; when I enjoy hilarity, they are the first and only one to cheer and clap wholeheartedly for me; when I suffer boredom, they are the first and only one to come out with immediate and chill jokes to eradicate my dissatisfaction. On the other hand, the “services” they provide are also priceless and prestige. Who will be one’s “free-of-charge driver” to send him or her back and forth whenever he or she requests? My cousins will; who will be one’s “free-of-charge tourist guide” to bring him or her outing around and tasting different types of food every weekend? My cousins will; who will be providing 24-hours auxiliary domicile for one to feel secured and protected all times? My cousins will. I am veridical grateful of the sacrifices made to ease my autonomous life before departing for US. Hence, it’s undisputable that the close relationship between my family and I is like the flowing water; no matter how powerful the splashing is, it will never halt the flowing. Truthfully, I treasure the chances of intimidating with them more than anything does.

Being cognizant of the importance of education and its great influences in distinguishing humans, the chance of going to US engenders me to enhance myself with better English foundation. Working gravely after this chance simply because I acknowledge that through education, the ignorant become learned; the cowardly become valiant; and the savage nations become civilized. So, in the same way, I am concerned over the importance of correct grammar used and sophisticated essay written rather than colloquial conversation spoken alone. These are evident in the English course I attend, in the journal writing I practice, and in the regular presentation and speaking I make. As a whole, I affirm that English is today’s most important language due to its popularity worldwide and its “International Language” title. I’m convinced that this possible auxiliary language to unify mankind as appointed by God, which is widely used in political affairs, business across the country, and education abroad, will lead to betterment of humanity.

Going to United States is grace as well as gift especially when it’s being sponsored. Due to all the affections of going to United States I get to understand my will, my sight, and my ability better, and I believe this is a significant turning point of my life as well as a great transition from ignorance to awareness. Knowing these affections are fated, not vexatious, and inevitable, I presume there are wisdoms behind, and one day, I will be thankful to what I have ordained today.